Hello Internet, This Is your DailyPickMeUp! And today’s blog regarding Autism is feeling accepted by others and what I mean by this is, well…when you were diagnosed, how long was it that you felt accepted by others? Say family, friends or the general public if we want to stretch it that far out. The feeling that nothing has changed is important I think because a diagnosis can change everything I find…to be told you have something that will never go away, how could it not? Of course Autism isn’t visible on the outside or anything but it’s still affects so many people who perhaps worry that others will not understand what they have or why they act the way that they do.
I know that I worried about being accepted by everyone…it was such a big worry for me to be honest, I mean I had just been told when I was a teenager, after so many years of tests and wondering to find out what was ”wrong” with me to be told that I had Aspergers Syndrome and that I couldn’t really do anything about it, I had to put up with it and accept it…pretty much the words the Doctors told me! So yeah, I panicked a little and sunk into a depression, I thought I was a freak for a few years! I understood everything that I had done and it sucked because I wasn’t sure if I could do anything about it, was my life over before i turned 18?
Well no…a bit melodramatic, I know but that’s just how I felt back then! I felt like I had no hope at all and it was made worse because I felt that no one would accept me, not necessarily because they didn’t want to but because they didn’t know how to, I mean I wasn’t the easiest person to persuade of anything. It can be hard sometimes because from time to time, it’s almost impossible to assure me of anything without me worrying! So I can’t imagine how hard it was for my parents to convince me that having Autism wasn’t the worst thing in the world! That is if they even really understood what it actually was or they were just pretending to make me feel better, I don’t know. I felt that the only person that could help me…was me, I came to a conclusion that I was the only one who really understood me…my actions, thoughts and why I worried so much…no one else really ”got it” so made things awkward so I relied on myself to ”better” myself confidence wise.
It took a long time for me to feel accepted by anyone else really, I kept myself away, well not literally but I didn’t see myself on the same level as anyone else for a few years, I was at the bottom of the barrel and I didn’t want to climb out of it until I was ready! What did it take for me to finally feel accepted by the rest of the world? Well I guess it would be when I ventured out of my home town and went to college, meeting all kinds of new people who helped me change my views of people, made me realize that I had no need to hide away and I gradually accepted that I had Autism but that was ok because I could do something about it and day by day, I learnt how to cope, what to do if I needed to calm down…learn to think before I act and to make friends…I achieved all of these things because I couldn’t stand isolating myself any longer…I didn’t want to feel like I was an Alien!
I often compare the moment I was diagnosed with Aspergers a bad one , it felt like I was unmasked, for the world to see who I really was for the first time and I hated every moment of it and I often compare that day to this video clip, my feelings are exactly the same as the wrestler as he implodes in rage
I like it because it matches the rage I felt, the sudden feeling of change that came about me as I was exposed, no more wondering or secrets about me, it was all out to be seen by all and I didn’t like that one bit!
So there you go, Feeling Accepted when you have been diagnosed…but what I learnt that the most important thing to do in this situation is accept yourself before anyone else truly can…be able to see that not much has to change, just because you may have Autism…a good life is still ahead of you, if you want it…you have to believe that you can have one, that your Autism won’t hold you back if you don’t let it…that’s what I learnt growing up and it helped me so much to come out of the darkness and into the light. So I could grow to understand more about what I had even more, I still don’t know everything about Autism and I’m learning new things all the time so I hope I haven’t offended anyone with Autism in this blog…they are just my opinions about how to cope with being accepted so I apologize if you felt offended by it.
Ok guys, thanks for reading and I’ll be back with more soon
Keep on smiling 🙂