People with Autism or Aspergers often get misunderstood by everyone else, we are called liars, loners and psychos because of how we act, our hobbies, liking to be alone sometimes and only talking about what we like makes us appear rude to you but let me ask you a question, have you ever thought about how we feel when you say these things to us? Yes, we have feelings, just like you, I for one choose to express them only when I want to because I’m shy about how I appear to others, eye contact for one terrifies me and I don’t like to cry in public or lose my temper but you assume I’m an emotionless robot yet you see people recording people’s pain and misery and putting it online yet they aren’t ever called heartless or emotionless, they are praised because it’s funny yet…I can’t look you straight in the eye sometimes and I’m weird…ok then.
Do you know what it feels like to want to walk up to that crowd of people and be able to talk to someone, to make a friend in this world but you can’t do it because your scared but others mistake it for rudeness and you get judged for it. The feeling is awful because you end feeling more alone than you did before you came up with the idea in the first place, your nervous to try again because of what might happen and people can’t understand why you struggle so much to just go up to someone and have a conversation or make friends but it takes two to tango, right? Do you ever feel like it’s always you that has to go up to someone to start a talk, don’t you just wish that someone could come up to you for once and start a talk or something, wouldn’t that be as lot more easier and relaxing but apparently, it has to be you all the time but if that’s true, how is a conversation ever started?
Do you know what it’s like to be told you have no empathy, no emotions or feelings, we are nothing more than emotionless, rude freaks that don’t care what we say or do apparently to many and it’s horrible, if only they knew just how much emotion we express, it’s just a shame they aren’t always around when it happens because we sometimes feel it necessary to let them out in privacy.
Do you know what it’s like to have a meltdown in public? To have all this pent up aggression appear out of nowhere and implode in front of your eyes! We just get called psychos and retards by people when we can’t control ourselves and I hate using that word, ‘retard’ so much but I have no choice because people always use it! it’s 2015 and that word still exists, how savage can people be?! A meltdown is one of the hardest things I have to go through and do you know why I have them? Not because I’m an angry individual but because I’m scared! Scared of always trying to impress people like you so you won’t look down on me for what I have! To show you that I can do just what you can do but sometimes…it gets to much and I have to vent and let it out, I don’t mean to look angry but you act like my meltdown is the first time you’ve ever seen anyone get angry and you make it out to be ten times worse than it actually is, you misunderstand and you make me out to be some loner who can’t have friends and it’s sick!
Do you know what it’s like to misunderstood because no one understands what Autism is? For so many years, no one knew what Autism was with me and everyone just thought I was weird and stupid because of that and my life was hell for so long because everyone singled me out and tried to make me feel as insecure and upset as I could be, all because people mock what they don’t understand and it’s a shame because if people had taken a little bit of time to try and understand, things might have been different.
Do you know what it feels like to be accused of being a liar? To be told that you can’t have Autism because you happen to be ok at being social or happen to be in a relationship? The pain you feel when people shut you out and ignore you because your not alone in a dark corner somewhere crying! This happens daily and it;’s a mystery as to why so many people can’t wrap their heads around anyone with Autism being happy…they must be lying, surely! (sarcasm) unbelievable, a little achievement here and there and someone has to try to bring them back down, it’s a shame because they should be encouraged to go even further and be happy, not be told that they don’t have Autism because they dare actually talk to someone!
Just what do I have to do to keep you happy world, when will someone just say something like
”It’s ok, I know you struggle to come out of your shell straight away, we can take it one step at a time”
Instead, it’s all or nothing, either you can make contact and talk with others confidently or your a loner, a freak to others who is mocked and ridiculed for it. How to keep your taunts and insults on a leash? Your obsession of making me or someone else feel bad for something I or they can’t control makes no sense because really, it’s savage and pointless, ha ha you can’t make friends so I will laugh at you for it…what do you gain from it exactly? five seconds of satisfaction? Really big, shows how shallow you are as a human being to go to so much effort to make another feel low! You target something you see as imperfect because it embarrasses you yet your the only who enjoys making another human being suffer for your entertainment, because others do it! You like making another Human feel bad because they struggle to make friends, do you really like making them cry, question if life is worth it? Because you don’t understand what they have, Do you know what it’s like to feel this way? Probably not but let me tell you, it’s not nice and remember, one day it can happen to you two….Autism or not…anyone can be ridiculed and mocked for something….you just choose to pick out things you don’t understand in someone…yet you must be perfect, right?