Well today was a bizarre day to say the least people! Sunday’s are meant to be relaxing, aren’t they? Well today, I woke up to the sound of heavy wind whistling outside and rain pounding the ground and windows…where did the sun go? Anyways, it’s been 3 days of bad weather which sucks as we were having some really nice sunny days but they seem to have gone for now…hope they return soon because it just doesn’t feel like Spring has arrived yet.
Anyway, my wife goes to church every weekend and she asked me if I wanted to go along with her since the weather was so bad outside and I couldn’t go hunting for Pokemon! I decided to go along and give it a go…I’m willing to give it a go at least once…even if I don’t believe in God, maybe I can be convinced to be more open minded on the topic…”maybe”…I can already imagine the ”his soul is damned” etc God gave us free will didn’t he?
I am an atheist and I have my reasons, like people have their reasons for following religion, I just personally don’t feel the need to go to a building every weekend and praise and worship something that I have never seen or met before, I just think that we are in control of our own destinies….maybe something is out there, I just haven’t found it yet but I just don’t think I can believe in a lord that made Autism a thing….not so fun never finding the confidence to make friends and be looked at by others without a label on my forehead…..not to mention all the stuff happening in the world…maybe I just don’t like being told how to look at something or how I should act in my life…not saying I’ll be atheist forever, just right now!
We also had a thought about going to Scotland in May and what sights we would try to see…still debating over trying a deep fried mars bar, Haggis and wearing a kilt but lets see where the days go before deciding anything like that.
We also keep going back and forth about starting a family in the near future…it’s a big decision for us to make but I can easily see 2018 as a great time to welcome our first child into the world, that’s not a spoiler by the way 😉 Getting to hold a baby though opened my eyes to what it could be like and I’ll be honest…I liked it….made me feel excited for all the challenges being a parent entails….shall discuss it more after church.
Church…I’ll be honest, it just wasn’t for me…I got bored very quickly by all the hymns and prayers…felt the stares of others as I was an unfamiliar face whereas my wife had been coming here for years…I have nothing against religion, just because it’s not my cup of tea, doesn’t mean I hate it! I respect it for what it does for people but I personally have never found a reason to make it something I could get behind yet! If we were all the same, life would be dull.
I felt like an alien in there, like I was watching a ritual that I just didn’t understand but all the ‘God is mighty’ and ‘God is Amazing’ made me think I was at a pep rally for 90 minutes! At least I gave it a go but I’m not sure as of right now if I would again, just don’t feel confident enough to do so!
Still bloody raining so I decide to write another chapter of my trip to Japan which you can read here Part 17- Let them eat Cheesecake!!!! which was fun, something that I like to do to unwind on a day off work! After this, we decided to head out and see the new Beauty and the Beast film starring Emma Watson or I was being dragged to see it!
Great movie…I normal hate the live Disney movies and prefer the cartoons but this is the first live one that I have loved and would happily see it again and again! Now I can go Pokemon hunting in peace, knowing that Disney delivered once more…..and it has finally stopped raining, I don’t have to swim home!