Hello and happy 2018….even though we are 11 days into the new year already! Better late than never, right? It’s a brand new year and 2017 is now behind us, which for me is wonderful news…had a few rough moments in that year and with the first sunrise of 2018, I can’t help but be full of optimism and hope that this year will be better for me and my family and for the rest of the world as well!
Dealing with my Autism is always a challenge in one way or another…just when I think I’ve overcome something, I see another mountain in the distance that I need to climb but I can admit that I am much better at socializing with other people than I used to be…I was rather crap at it years ago to be honest, sometimes I wouldn’t even bother at all, saw it as a waste of time but today, I try to make more of an effort to see people! My aim is to not let what I have get me down as much…easier said than done but when things get tough, it’s hard to not think of the reason why that might be so? I sometimes that my Autism makes me think more negatively than the average person, although it feels wonderful when I overcome that and become positive! Keeps me going and has helped me many times in the past to achieve things that I was always told would be out of my reach, so it can’t always be a bad thing.
I’m going to write more this year, I feel like I went off it slightly in 2017, going a couple of months without writing anything was awful for me but I just couldn’t find any motivation…especially after August when I lost my last 2 grandparents…and sadly, me and my wife lost our first attempt at making a baby in the first 6 weeks…that one hit her a little hard but we’re determined to try, try and try again this year…she really wants to be a mother so I doubt she’ll ever give up! Neither will I, it’s what we both want so it should be an interesting year.
Every year, don’t we all just wish that this year will be better than the previous one? What if that year was a really good year though? Bit of an ask to have an even better year but I understand why people do it though. As I said before, I struggled to find any motivation to write last year, it was like a hit major writers block and it just wouldn’t go away! Well for a long time now, I wanted to start writing a story and this week I begun writing down notes and coming up with ideas…I try to go for an hour everyday with my little notepad and pen and I write down character ideas and world build as best that I can and I feel positive that I will follow through and eventually start writing it up on my computer…I can see myself spending a couple of years making it as good as I can, I like to be explanatory and put things into detail so I shall have to see how that goes, hopefully I might seek some help along the way, who knows?
I’ve written for most of my life and I’ve had a poem published and a short story as well! One poem I wrote in University…a girl asked me for my autograph…it was strange but oddly fulfilling that someone really like it! I must be doing something right, yet sometimes…I just can’t be bothered to right and that really frustrates me to no end…writing means everything to me, yet sometimes I don’t want to and when that happens, it can be tricky to get back in front of the keyboard again…it can take a few days or even weeks to do so, need to try and change that somehow.
When I turn 28 in June, I’ll be 2 years away from my Thirties and I don’t know how to feel about that…I mean my Twenties have flown by, meaning that time flies as you get older, bit scary when you think about it, how long until my first grey hair?
Overall, I just want to be happy this year and if that includes starting a family, then I’m all for it! If I write a lot more, so be it…even if no one ever reads it, I just enjoy it! I’ll work on my story, being more sociable and making the most of this year!
Thank you if you made it all the way to the end.